My anti-happiness it would seem is solely made up of fear and nihilism. But much more fear than nihilism. Nihilism is like boredom. The creativity killing thoughts are also the nihilistic thoughts.

Ultimately I prefer nihilism to fear. I happily kill the fear, kill the chop chop with the tick tock if possible.

This tick tock/chop chop or nihilism versus fear, the bouncing between the two, it is I think the same concept as being bipolar/manic depressive? Maybe. Maybe not.

Eh, possibly not at all. But then anti-happiness, is composed ...solely? of sadness, fear and nihilism(boredom). The depressive stage of the manic depressive generally consists of which? I was thinking it consists of fear actually. Paralyzing fear. Don't get out of bed fear. Occasionally this fear is overcome by boredom/nihilism/understanding of the shortness of pointlessness of life, etc and the person thus overcomes the fear and acts in irresponsible ways. Spends all their money etc, because what does it matter? They're just going to die. Might as well just act out. It may seem hardly a positive thing (nihilism) but compared to paralyzing fear it's not so bad.

Although this nihilism, etc most logically suggests that all movement is illogical, in reality not too many people decide to just quit moving because movement is illogical, more often this nihilism may be used to overcome fear and results in varying levels of mania. "nonconformed" behavior, etc. And of course when you decide that you're going to die anyway, that 'life is short' etc you then run off and do dangerous, unconformed things...

Most likely it's not so neat as that.

...but yes. Some people hide the fear they're feeling. The manic is the nihilist stage. Nihilism is just a bad word for it. It's the, "life is short, live it to the fullest while you can!" stage. It just happens that such a statement has an absurdity in it where if you really examing what you're saying you end up with nihilism. 'manic depressive/bipolar' is tick tock/chop chop. Life is short, live it to the fullest/some degree of fear.

Maybe with a more coherent understanding of this people could utilize the life is short concept, rein in it's excesses and use it to pull out of the fear.

The excesses are in part because when saying 'life is short' you're kind of thinking about your death. Becoming familar with it and not taking as much care to avoid it's eventuality.

...and then idealism versus pragmatism. I really think when faced with idealist versus pragmatist choices, if we decide that, "What the hell, life is short, I might as well stand up for what I really believe." then we're going the idealist route. So Obama could persecute the torturers. So Lincoln could have been outspoken against slavery from the beginning. So you refuse to descend into making compromises with morally bankrupt people. So, you're using 'life is short' to be an idealist and refuse to compromise...

you focus on your death and don't live in the actual world...

Analogy and analgous are quite a bit different obviously when it comes down to writing.
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Are people essentially good or bad?

'Good' and 'bad' are relative things. And so, are you relating to yourself or some other thing? What thing could you possibly compare/relate with instead of yourself? And good and bad ultimately come down to intelligence although of course not intelligence in the simplistic IQ test way.

The end result is that over and over again, the smarter people are less happy. In part because more and more everyone else appears essentially... not so good. And they can't even say these things and in many cases really honestly even look at them because then they're an elitist for even thinking in terms of their selves as being smarter.
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Nostalgia is a longing for return. Most people have nostalgia for their youth. I only have nostalgia for my youth in the sense that it felt as if there was this great hope; of unlimited possibilites. That hope was mostly not real. It is no more or less real than today. Life has slowly taught me how unreal it was.

All of my nostalgia is really just for the return of ignorance. Or at least a bad memory of the reality of the past. This does not mean that it is the same for other people. Other people I suppose had happy carefree childhoods and their nostalgia is legitimate and something entirely different from mine.