Anti-multitasking

my issue with art

I think I was wrong there. I dislike Camus' solution because the idea of not thinking period, in any situation, seems a negative. As we exist to the extent we think, etc. But, practically speaking the mind can only do so much. At least in the formative stage of a piece of art it is best if you are solely concentrating on just that piece of art. You should not be thinking at all about whether or not anyone else will ever hear, read, look at it. That is energy taken away from the art itself. This idea instead of imagining you're going to be the next Hemingway, or whatever, (thus the creation isn't so futile...) you end up daydreaming about absurd things like being famous instead of concentrating on whatever art you're working on.

There is something to be said for putting your head down and just not thinking about certain things. I just worry about what will happen when I'm not looking. If ever I have any actual "syndrome" it would be this idea of wanting to keep awareness of all things. A ridiculous idea. ADD stuff. Should try to concentrate on one thing at a time probably. Yes, will do so.

My version of Camus' The Plague would be wild orgies in the streets as people really and truly attempted to live: Life is Short.

My wife said life is short to me last night. I spent years wasted in engineering school jumping through endless flaming hoops thinking, "Life is short. Life is short. LIFE IS SHORT!!!! Arrgggghhhhh!"

It is short and sometimes it's well and true and good to remember this. Other times it's a saying used to justify being a crap person. It becomes a question at times of having fun verus being moral. And my wife says, "there is an edge you can walk between the two."

The question, especially with regards to the moral outrage which at times consumes me, is: Where exactly is this edge? How do we determine where the edge is?

To answer we have to know just how short is it really? This life?

But we don't know the answer to that. What we end up doing, is deciding it's different lengths depending on the situation.

My 'The Plague' would take the Life is Short concept to where it is clear just how absurd a saying it actually is.

Camus' The Plague was instead a stodgy, stolid... boring story because he was attempting to write about a solution to The Absurd with a capital 'A'. His solution being something like the protestant work ethic without the protestantism. I don't agree with him.

More exactly his solution is a choosing of atheism and deciding to not bother thinking about a certain rather extremely important part of the future (your eventual nonexistence) as opposed to adopting mysticism, which would mean adding something to yourself (adding creativity, magic, etc).

He says you can't go the route of mysticism because then you've abandoned logic and made everything truly meaningless.

I think I don't agree. The reality is that it's not such an all or nothing venture. It is questions of degrees. Both with thinking to the future; of your eventual nonexistence. And going the route of mysticism; believing in an afterlife instead of beleiving this life is a futility.

The reality is that we all pretty much do a bit of both to varying degrees. (I think we are all being highly mystical in a number of ways that most atheist do not recognize as mystical.) I can not say that Camus is absolutely wrong. But my preference is to add (to myself) instead of subtract. I would rather add some magic to reduce The Absurd instead of just not thinking about The Absurd. Because I exist to the extent I think.

Camus' The Plague

Didn't like this novel. Finally put it down in annoyance 30 pages short of the finish (300 pages long). Very rare that I'd read so far into something that just wasn't getting the job done. But I've always found the bubonic plague fascinating and also really like Camus' The Absurd/Myth of Sisyphus. And really wanted to give him a chance.

Yes, if it is a fact that people like to have examples given them, men of the type they call heroic, and if it is absolutely necessary that this narrative should include a "hero," the narrator commends to his readers, with, to his thinking, perfect justice, this insignificant and obscure hero who had to his credit only a little goodness of heart and a seemingly absurd ideal. This will render to the truth its due, to the addition of two and two its sum of four, and to heroism the secondary place that rightly falls to it, just after, never before, the noble claim of happiness. It will also give this chronicle its character, which is intended to be that of a narrative made with good feelings--that is to say, feelings that are neither demonstrably bad nor overcharged with emotion in the ugly manner of a stage play.

This is one of two paragraphs strangely stuck in this novel attempting to defend why he's gone about it the way he has. I can't say I'm sure of a better way but despite winning the nobel prize in literature it really didn't seem a good read.

One would think the plague itself would be a much better example of the absurd then such sidebars as this sad absurd man, a horrifically failed writer, who could have been stuck in a romantic comedy as well as he was put here.

This worry on Camus' part of being like a stage play, although I understand not wanting to be kitsch, something rings false, reminds me of this again.

After sparing us the nitty gritty for 200 plus pages he does finally describe in great detail the horrible death of a young boy. Seemed the way the novel should have been begun. The first 200 pags just cut out. Definitely a short story padded. This scene which was finally good didn't seem "overcharged". It seemed one of the few scenes that wasn't sleepwalking. As to what he means by "feelings which are demonstrably bad" but it seems like there are levels of kitsch at work here. Probably I should use another word. I'm still just using the word to mean unreal I think. Camus takes pains to avoid the unrealness of the stage play and in some ways is even way too honest while at the same time he seems to be avoiding some of what he would consider vulgar (which is to say he's selectively dishonest still).

Plus his main character is a stoic. It works for Vance, not for Camus'. Maybe if the setting was more fantastic. And the middle of a plague outbreak in full force could be fantastic. But he only vaguely tells us, he rarely ever shows us. He dilutes it so much.

No, the real plague had nothing in common with the grandiose imaginings that had haunted Rieux's mind at its outbreak. It was above all, a shrewd, unflagging adversary; a skilled organizer, doing his work thoroughly and well. That, it may be said in passing, is why, so as not to play false to the facts, and, still more, so as not to play false to himself, the narrator has aimed at objectivity. He has made hardly any changes for the sake of artistic effect, except those elementary adjustments needed to present his narrative in a more or less coherent form.

He seems so awfully earnest. But there is already plenty of nonfiction about the bubonic plague. I read about ten books in college for a paper. For fiction you have to be unreal to examine things actually worth examining. This isn't supposed to be journalism.

So "earnest," it's an awful word to me. To me it manages to express a sort of negative truthfulness, (where really the truth ought never be a negative thing...)



I really disliked this novel despite loving the idea of a novel about the plague told by the philosopher who introduced the idea of The Absurd.

Camus was perhaps not as smart as Sartre, but he was much the better man.

A kind of strange example of a common republican tactic. When over and over again the opposition is clearly more intelligent, there's nothing for it but to attack intelligence itself.

Good post summarizing the stuff I've been thinking about lately

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Started trying to actually write fiction yesterday. Descended into deep depression for my troubles, ended up thinking of the levels of suicide. I don't have any normal go-kill-myself-suicide in me. I defeated that I think permanently about 18 years ago. But there is stuff like driving down the road and wishing you might wreck the car and die. (I don't wish that.) There is kind of wishing you'd just get some disease and get the pointless boring absurdity over with. Or, working at a hospital, here and there in the past having wished I was a patient, I have done those a few times. Some kind of creeping suicide. I'm in a good mood at the moment as it's morning. Takes a long day of contemplation (futilely trying to write fiction for example) to reach the point of thinking enough, compiling enough of the pointlessness, etc of it all.

But I won't ever do such a thing. No worries there if anyone happens to be reading this blog (which was essentially meant as a private matter exactly so I wouldn't have to worry about such misunderstandings. Endless misunderstandings possible through reading all this.)

But the blog was ultimately a vague experiment and it can go where it may.