Unrealistic and random... but not too random! And depending on the medium can't be too unrealistic either...
Simply pretending....
Waiting for Arturia's MinimoogV... Got a condenser mic. Maybe it's enough of an improvement to really begin... maybe.
Not good enough though. Will continue to experiment.
My music is really vocally driven which sucks considering the voice I'm stuck with.
For plugins I actually spent money on: Pentagon is good. ($125) Nice drums. Waldorf Attack seems pretty unimpressive... the Waldorf bundle seems awful ($85). VNV nation used Attack though... not that I've ever heard them. (retarded smiley here).
This is nice:
http://ann.sounds.free.fr/
I have the money to buy a bunch of hardware and stuff. But the socialist in me wants to see true equality. I want everyone to be able to write music and as such I want to get this Done as cheap as possible. The need for a computer can't be helped... Did I need East West Silver ($200)? Squidfont Orchestra (free) has a nice sound but just doesn't do enough. Arturia Minimoog is the most expensive thing I've bought at $280. :( Just sounded too good. (waiting to receive it in the mail). It really inspired me. By 'inspired' I mean the sounds hit my synethesia; they sounded like they were alive. IOW they sounded like they came from creatures actually living. They inspired me quite a bit more than all others. They say it's "warm" or "fat". As opposed to tinny, there's a fullness. Which is again like it's coming from something alive. And it reminded me of Skinny Puppy stuff.
So I've spent over $600 dollars on plugins that I think were probably actually worth it. Oh well. A few more years and if we all still have electricity to run computers maybe it will be all free.
I suspect though even now I could have managed it. SFZ (free sampler)... Oatmeal (free), Crystal (free), Synth1 (free), Helix (free), actually getting good at making sounds instead of just tweaking presets...
I have to completely not promote my music for a few years (while I write 50, 60 more songs). Otherwise perfectly good music is feeling like failure just because the chittering monkeys aren't impressed.