The good person tries being good to a group of monkey demons. This idealist, his mind full of good thoughts, reaches out with charity and good will and is taught not to act that way, his attempt at good met with derision, contempt, etc, if not much worse. This most generalized idea is implanted in my head and when real life events resemble it in one way or another it strikes a chord with me.

The beginner of Toxic Avenger was horrible but in such a fascinating way.
That character in the holy grail, the wimpy one who keeps trying to go off into song.
A song completed in my head which I'll record later today...

The way Mary
http://www.veganfitness.net/forum/profile.php?mode=viewprofile&u=21
was treated on the veganfitness discussion board; ignored by the owner and his yes men for a few thousand posts then banned when she finally got angry, ultimately because she is the good person; not completely conformed to this sick society except for being vegan as is the case with that typical group. Even more so than usual as I suspect it's a part of the spirit of activism. IOW, see how perfectly normal we are? Veganism isn't extreme, we're perfectly, utterly normal. Fake smiles to the bone.

A story I kept trying to write about; a D&D setting/medieval setting; a boy in a village who thanks to not being properly assimilated to the high school zoo way; not being "tough/cold"; ... instead acting in a manner which if everyone followed would make this world a much better place, is attacked/treated in a horrible manner+with embarrassment, like in the Toxic Avenger.

He goes to that place where people never go as a result and... it's an old story.

A few are physically pushed in a battle there in a 100 year old story (The Hollow Land). In mine he goes there partly because he doesn't care... yet unlike to the typical drug user mentality which doesn't care for their life and goes there and dies a grisly death, it turns out his life matter to him A LOT. To the point that he will continue to exist no matter the circumstances, no matter what a monstrosity he turns into. No matter how far he goes beyond the point where life makes any sense............

Did Tesla destroy Tunguska?

I like writing music from an intellectual POV. Anyone can make a 20 second piece of music. What is interesting is finding a way to develop that into a "song". I had a period where I started worrying about not inundating the internet with more badly produced crap that no one will listen to anyway and thus I started making little bits that I quit bothering to try to finish. This became failure, again and again. And it took away the fun, the intellectual challenge (like Sudoku) of writing music. Also sitting on a song much longer to make it better... you get so sick of hearing the song... really takes away the enjoyment.

It's a matter of being selfish; just doing this for myself versus worrying about pleasing others. It's really dumb to worry about pleasing others anyway considering the state of music. And it's no fun in general.