Sunday, June 13, 2010

practice cello-The sense of long term good (improvement over the long term) plus mostly enjoyable during but, over time the same mistakes get increasingly frustrating. Really a difficult instrument.

Long term-some
Short term-good

read book-has a sort of long term good. And good stories can be very enjoying but slight guilt about passiveness/life passing me by while missing "The Great Party", and can be a too immobile / unhealthy activity

Long term-some
Short term-good

write music-close to perfect indifference of others is an increasing negative. still really enjoyable though. Fueled by curiosity. I suppose others are ruining it though. Have to forget the existence of just about everyone on Earth to continue enjoying it.

Long term-? (increasing bitterness... no sense of achievement, becoming an ugly thing for me as I can't forget others complete indifference very often.)
Short term-very good

write stories-maybe causes the perception of a long term achievement but during the process the feelings of failure are so high.

Long term-good so far
Short term-some

watch TV-relaxing at times but eventually left with sense of uselessness

Long term-Except for the occasional movie, not good
Short term-some

play video games-the escapism is unfortuantely mixed with a feeling of ridiculousness of the uselessness combined with anxiety about not dying, etc.

Long term-not good, excepting Zelda I guess. (Why not put a lot more music, variation, and different voices in Oblivion, etc? How pitiful that 6 billion people. All these years and it's just devolved to military crap.)
Short term-some