Same song as before but fixed up.

I was kaput yesterday.

I wonder if my not wanting to spend multiple days writing a song is from a fear of failure? I have a book lying somewhere in this house by a psychiatrist who specializes in creativity and he's primarily all about fear of failure. I think he even went so far as to divide things up into 7 different kinds of fear of failure that you have to try to constantly overcome. I do try to write music, so in a way I've overcome fear of failure. But perhaps not trying too hard is fear of failure rearing it's head in the distance yet again. A foe like a necromanisized(sp) zombie that you keep killing and killing and it just keeps coming back to life.

Probably the name I gave the song (Once built, forever destroyed) game me the impetus to go back and fix it up. There was a part in the middle where I actually wasn't even on the beat! Plus the ending wasn't any good. Added some notes and put in a trumpet. Still the nuance of the trumpet isn't so great. But I can stand this version. It's now not quite such a testament to what a failure I forever am.

Now I've two other creative mediums I haven't really started in because of fear of failure. And, it's not so simple as saying, "Oh, I just fear failure. Well then, I'll quit doing that and get along with things!" It's not so simple in that we do have to try to assess whether or not we'll be successful at something to determine what's the best direction to take...